Thursday, June 21, 2012

The Sweet Life


I am a mess of contradictions.

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I love slow-paced days with lots of book reading, stopping to smell the flowers and giving the kids plenty of time for imaginative play. I also am task driven and work best--and seem to be happiest--when I check off all the items on my to-do list and keep my family to some semblance of a schedule. At the same time, I'm a terribly untidy person and hate housework (or at least I hate doing it with the kids around, it's not so bad if I'm left alone to focus) so I struggle with the daily tasks (even though they are on my task list) required to keep our home from being declared a trash dump instead of a habitation fit for human beings.

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The result is that I focus too much on my task list without actually getting much done, I feel guilty about taking time to read or to gaze at the wonders in my own garden, and I am constantly annoyed by the the rooms of my home being littered with child-created debris.

All that introduction establishes the importance of the following statement: This week I took the time to watch the thunderstorms roll in--I so love a good summer thunderstorm--and allowed the kids romp and play in the puddles for as long as they wanted... and I did not feel guilty about the untended task list for a single second.

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Life is a constant push/pull between what is important and what is urgent, between what I want to do and what I think I should be doing. And, frankly, I find it mentally exhausting.

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But for this one day there was no interior debating or counting how many tasks were left undone.

The Puddle Run

We just had some good, old-fashioned (guilt-free) fun.


Mellodee said...

Exploring puddles, jumping barefooted in the newly fallen rain, splashing in water with no concern about clothes, or hair, or shoes getting wet...all things of which a happy childhood is made.

And being the mom who encourages that, my dear, is the most important task of all! :)

Christine said...

Colleen, I so needed this today, to know that there are other moms who feel the same way I do about my house, the guilt and mental exhaustion. Thank you, for sharing and sharing a guilt-free moment.

Colleen said...

Thank you! Your kind comments do my soul good!

It's so good to know I'm not the only one. Whenever you look around your house at the mess and start feeling guilty about it, remember that my house looks exactly the same way! We'll work together on banishing the guilt!

Jill said...

I love this post for many reasons..

LOVE the sisters photo!

And I really think you are MY sister.
We are alike in more ways than I thought...

And it's fun to see rain puddles because we haven't had any in ages. :(